@ different kind of love ~ 另一种的爱 ^^v

i like you

but i feel like not going to tell you

because i have been accustomed to alone 

我喜欢你

可是我不想跟你说

因为我已经习惯一个人了

haha^^v

actually i really accustomed to alone, some more i also don't understand what love actually is!

i don't understand is it really that i like you or not,

but i am really care about you. 

Everyday also feel like wanna chat with you, 

wanna understand you more, 

wanna know more things about you! 

but everytime i find you i also seem that i am very wu liao, talking things also wu liao!! 

I want to 

wish you all the best in your life! 

wish you will graduated with a nice nice nice results! 

wish you find a job that u really interest on it!

wish you have a blissful life with you love!

Maybe

i am not the one that you like

i am not the one that you care

i am not the one that u think all the time

i am not the one you wish him to smile everyday

i am not the one to be your lover in my life

i am not the one to be your husband

i am not the one that you wish to have a family with

Yet, now i know

i  am the person who like you

i am the person who care about you all the time

i  am the person who think about you all the time

i am the person who hope you can smile everyday

i am the person who hope you can be my lover

i am the person who hope you can be my wife forever

i am the person who hope we can have a own family

i am the person who hope we are Forever in front of GOD

Maybe 

one day.. one day

you know who i am

Actually i wanna tell you i like you

but i duno why i choose not to tell you

i choose to be silent in front you

Yet

i really hope that you will know!!

I

You

一个人

一個人久了，會懶得戀愛
一個人久了，朋友會越重要
一個人久了，會越來越喜歡聽歌
一個人久了，電話會常常忘記帶
一個人久了，就會養成一個怪癖
一個人久了，對愛情會越來越挑剔

一個人久了，除了寂寞點外還是蠻開心的
一個人久了，會慢慢變得成熟起來
一個人久了，會比以前更重視更愛父母，更重視親情
一個人久了，對所有的節日大多沒甚麼期待
一個人久了，聽到看到別人一對對的很甜蜜，心裡多少還是

會有 些介意

一個人久了，會喜歡買很多無謂東西，帶自己去很多很遠的地方
一個人久了，會覺得無拘無束自由自在天寬地廣
一個人久了，愛情會變得越來越不重要，取而代之的是錢和事業
一個人久了，會越來越理性，越來越現實

總之，一個人久了，是很幸福的時光...

即使有一點點無聊和寂寞
但是游走在自己的街道上
甚麼都可以無所謂 沒有任何束縛

可是原來...
一個人久了，是會上癮的...

希望

知道却做不到

比不知道又做不到

更痛苦

我还没能为它而拼命的觉悟

时间也剩下无几

我所选的路

也逐渐清晰

能不能尽力

能不能坚持到最后

也不清楚

再想下去也不会有什么结果

我只能做的

就是把全部的可能性

都做一次

希望我会有未来

希望我能成就大事

希望所有关心我的人 也都得到祝福

我应该能吧？

真的希望我能。。

很累，真的很累了。。。

刚才在祷告时，无意中说了“我逃避到好累”
我为什么在这样说。。
我在怕什么？
我到底怎了？
我真的不知道。

约想就越想，
约想就越想逃避
约想就越想离开

当初自己做好的决定，
想在却想要反悔，
我像是受不住承诺的人
真的没有责任感的人

没办法答应做到的事情，
为何当初我会答应？
为何当初我会那么坚持？
为何现在我会临阵退缩？

我真的很想休息。。
真的真的逃避到好累！！
我不想再逃避了
可以吗？？

神，你能回应我吗？
怎样的道路，才是你要我走的？
可以带着我吗？
我很胆怯
我很没信心
我很迷茫
可以牵着我的手一起走吗？
我很无助啊！！
请袮听我祷告
奉主耶稣的名祈求，阿门！！

Pieces' words of a day

today is Kerry Ng Syi-i birthday,
and today is my 1st time woke up late to go to class in this year.

i noe that is nothing related on this two things,
but i still wanna write at here,
so maybe some days i may click it back to see how my history was.
haha^^v

Recently the stress is become more obvious than usual.
i think the reason is because
the week of 7th - 13th of March,
which is the week that i got 3 midterm test is needed to be examined..
but now i still haven't study
just because of the asgmt that i needed to submit before midterm and after midterm.

still the same,
i wish i can improve,
improve things that i needed to improve to become more better and more knowledgeable
i wish i can be more mature,
so i can see things through different perspectives or think maturity
i wish i can be more spiritual
so i can more rely to my Lord in doing anything and everything

that all for today.
haha^^v

ps:
Syi-i, Happy Birthday to you!
Wish your dreams come true!
May God bless you and your family!
May the joyful surrounded you any moment and every moment!
Happy Birthday^^