i cried today

recently, i considered whether wanna shift or remain the same house.

i told this to my parents, and my parents said:" you make decision by yourself la."

of course, I'm happy to hear that. but things normally happen not as easy as i thought.

i have to worry many kind of things.

but the 1st worry come to my mind is,

if i really wanna move, sure i have to bother my parents a loT.

i really don't like to be the burdens of my family.

because my existence, they have sacrifice a lot a lot of things to grow me up or fulfill my needs.

i really don't no whether this is

negative thinking or

depression or

just because i care about them?

i just know that i really don't like to be my parents burdens.

i wanna be a child that can bring

comfortable, joyful, and happiness

to my parents.

i don't wan them to be suffered.

as i finalize my decision that i wanna shift, i sent a text message to my mom.

my mom replied me:" since you have decided, then you prayed more ba."

for me, this really gave me a warn feeling.

a feeling like someone you love is hugging you tightly by that moment.

that why the reason i suddenly cried.

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actually i not that kind of person who always write blog.

the blog i write maybe is not that important or serious cases.

the blog i write maybe that the turning point of my life,

or something like a small intervention of my life.

maybe i write blog is depends my emotion.

i hope my blog can be a small part of "mine history".