Tuesday, November 24, 2009

尽力的进步

最近在想
为什么我总是看到别人的好
却看不到自己的优点
而弱点
却看到眼睛都花了

有时真的很讨厌自己
为什么做事总不能像别人那样 做得那么好
往往做出来的成绩都是马马虎虎

我想做个杰出的人
甚至要用我的厚脸皮
说:我一定要做杰出之人
我不想永远失败
我想要的是成功
这样
我就能觉得自己有存在的价值


对于以上的语音与态度
甚为基督徒的我
是没有理由会说出这些话
对于基督徒来说
存在的价值就是
神爱我们
可是我却把 “成功” 放在最重要的价值上
真失败

我真的希望
无论在哪方面
我都要尽力而为
尽力了
做出来的成果
还是不是很好的话
这样就只能说
自己的能力范围就到此而已
绝对不要跟别人比
要比就跟自己比
哈哈哈哈!!


ps:
是时候面对事实了
虽然有些残忍
可是我相信我能

因为我知道我是吃苦长大的
哈哈
所以我能熬过那些琐碎的辛苦

Monday, November 16, 2009

想念的季节 the "miss" season

这个季节不知道为什么
In this season, i do not know what is the main reason

总是把我放在“想念”里头
that put me into the "miss"

可我却做不了什么
yet, i can't do anything

要该如何表达自己对别人的心意
how can we express our feeling toward other people

我也搞不懂
i already confused on it

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

UTAR-mates, please rest in peace

what human actually can do?
human is created by GOD..and yet, human can do nothing!
human is only a small creature compare to the disaster, the universal!!

Things happened, and we could not change anything.
The only thing that human can do is weeping and gnashing of teeth to the one they love and care which is already not belong to this world..

Although the 3 UTAR students who drowned at Batu Berangkai waterfall at Kampar, which i not recognize them or even never saw before, but my heart having a sadness feeling toward them.
if i let myself keep thinking of them, i will cry out, i really will.
Everybody doesn't want it do be happen, and yet, things happen and we cant do anything to avoid and stop it.

Sometimes i really doubt that why GOD created us, human to exist on the earth.
why GOD choose us?
what GOD want us to know when HE let us born on this world?
Where is HE when we need HIM to show us the road?
HE created us and yet HE seem abandon us..

I still believe in GOD, i believe that HE has the mercy toward us, as a human.
I believe one day, HE will tell us the reason why, why HE let all the unpleasant things happened surround us.

My UTAR uni-mates, please enjoy your rest in peace!